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Have you ever encountered a situation whereby the solution is a REALLY mind blowingly simple one, but yet you are just trying to ignore going down that route?

I have. Tons of times.

In many scenarios in life, you will tend to think its déjàvu.This has happened to me many times. I like to listen to my friend’s problems and advise them accordingly. When the problems don't happen to you, it doesn't seem to make such an impact in my life. I can stand aside and look at issues from a different angle. When it happens to you, and the prime story object becomes yourself, everything seems to be totally different now.

But somehow, it doesn't seem to be the easy case, when i have heard so much stories in my life. With the amount of cases that i have heard before, its almost impossible for me not to know what is the route to take. Yet, when its time to really make that decision, my brains somewhat turn into jelly and mush. Not capable of holding onto any logical thoughts in my head. Have you ever had a situation whereby you cant think logically when in face of someone or something? I have.. esp when i see a handsome guy talking to me.. haha

Deep within us, we all know what to do. But i cant seem to reach there without talking to someone about it. I know what to do.

My friend told me this when we were chatting the other day. What doesnt kill you, builds you. Whatever you have experienced in your life, treat is as an experience and it will build up your character. I must be quite a character by now!

I dont know if this is really true in life, but if it is, i am sure i am much stronger than before, with all my experiences behind me and to remind me of all the scars that i have gotten with all my battles. Whats life without a scar or two to remind us on how hard we have fought on survival and how difficult it was to get until my current stage in life?

Appreciation of what i have right now, perhaps will be something that i am proud of, and perhaps i can achieve much more with days to come. In life, you really have to be contented with what you have. Alot of people will be envious with what you have, as life would not have been so comfortable for them. Things dont just fall into place and things just dont happen.

Like what i always say, what good is a bathtub when you dont have a plug?

Be contented. Life could be much worse.

Its time to get some rest now. Cheers!

Have you ever landed into a situation where you know that you should use your logical brains to think about the issue and not with what lies beneath your chest?

I am sure at a certain point of your life, you would have gone through such a decision. I am just curious to know which option actually won in the end and how long did it take you to come to that decision? For me personally, it generally takes a while. The more complex the issue is, the longer its going to take.

I dont always make the right decisions in my life. If i can look back at my life in general, i presume i have screwed up more than a few times. Two hands might not even be enough to count them all, but hey, everyone makes mistakes right? (Yes, this sounds extremely like an excuse)

In restrospect, i always wonder how come i can make such stupid decisions with my life. Am i too immature to think about the issue throughly, or is it due to the fact that i dont sit down and really think about issues? I have this trait to forget unhappy things very fast, push it to the very far back of my brain storage, and forget all that ever happened.

Yet, some things can just happen and bring it all back again. Lets just say, its an onslaught of past emotions and experiences that i really do want to hide behind all my life.Did i really shift-deleted all my memories, or did i just suppress them somehow and forced myself never to think about it again? I think , deep beneath me, i do know all the answers to all my questions.

Facing up to them, thats another challenge. I know that i will eventually get over everything, and choose the right path to go. Everyone can always point fingers at everyone else, telling them how easy it is to give up an accumulation of emotions but have you ever thought how true it is when they tell you that when you are pointing a finger at someone else, you have three other fingers pointing back at you? Sitting down and really thinking about something will really clear your mind and tell you what to do. But, when you come to a decision, how well are you going to really be comfortable with it?

Passing by a certain area, going through certain memoires, human beings are always prone to reminisce. In certain situations, its definitely a good one. But yet, certain decisions are not really what you should have committed to. Decision making process has never been a happy one for me recently. I try to tell myself that i am doing the right thing, but my memory will lapse into oblivion whenever i try to action. When i know that the damage has already been done, its slightly too late to really think about how to patch it back.

Reality has always been cruel. Making the wrong decisions in life may make you lose certain things in life. There are risks in business, there are also certain risks tagged into life. Every step you make will decide on the path that you move towards. You might not like it, but there is no returning to the original spot for you to re-consider what has happened.

When we make a wrong step in life, we all know deep within our hearts that its wrong. Our heart beats increases and our brains keep telling us to STOP! U TURN back! This will become another black spot in your life again. But hey, do we ever listen to that nagging inner voice of ours? When we are moving towards a road of no return? Unfortunately for us, life doesn't have a second chance. What’s done is done. Would you care to repeat it again? Opps, i might!

Pain, its very hard to describe it. Taking up a piece of mental cloth, trying to erase all memories and actions of a particular action doesn't work. Life does not provide the user with an eraser and giving us a choice to erase whatever we do not want to see, or a line that we want to remove. But in reality, i would not have chosen another path, other than the one that i have chosen previously. Am i a sadist? I actually chose to suffer the same emotional debt that i have gone through.

Pictures, pieces and bits of it comes through whenever i have some time to sit down and think. Will that go away? Yes it definitely will, sink together in the deep blue sea, together with where it was supposed to be in the very beginning. Certain situations in life, if you cant afford to play the game, dont. No one else will pity you when things dont turn out the way you want them to be. Calculated risk or stupidity? I tend to take the latter choice.

Give me a few days. I get over things pretty quickly. Its not going to be an issue anymore in a few days time. With such a limited memory of mine, nothing really stores up very long. Emotional? Yes, sometimes i will lapse into an emotional situation and would rather kill myself. But yet, all these tells me that i am actually human.

What are the thoughts that are running through my mind right now?

I cant fight with someone who has much more experience than what i have. You win.

Its forgotten and buried.

It is a paradoxical but profoundly true and important principle of life that the most likely way to reach a goal is to be aiming not at that goal itself but at some more ambitious goal beyond it.
  - Arnold Toynbee